I haven't written that much on the blog this summer, I really didn't have that much to say I guess- I know, I know...hold the jokes! While writing is definitely a part of the creative process that a blog entails, I felt a little void this past summer. May have been the winter prior or may have been the sudden change I also felt in myself this year.Truth be told- I just lost my heart for it for a while. Summer approached, and I took time to reflect rather than just shoot and wish for the best. Even as a child, I always took the summer as a time to reflect. Its my time to evolve, to grow. Especially as I grow as a photographer, being that it is the most creative time of the year-constantly seeking inspiration. It can get exhausting. I spent a lot of time this summer studying light, experimenting with lenses and gear- taking some online courses etc. It hit me hard this summer, that the reason I have lost my heart, is because I lost my vision. It just hasn't turned into what I wanted, or who I want to be. I felt like I was always trying to measure/keep up rather than express myself. I dont want to just conform to trends , but really respect the art as a whole and who I am as person. It's not a transformation I will make over night for sure, but a source of new found inspiration. I felt ready to re-invent myself. My love has always lied in photo journalism-telling stories. The only greater love I have above it, is my children. I found a solemn peace in discovering that the only thing I truly needed is room to grow.
The daily chaos of life with two young children and working a full time job doesn't always allow for a gal like me to make my love of the camera a first priority. So In the meantime, my overall lesson from this past summer, is that I can grow as an artist and mother as my children grow into their own as well, and really- could we take a greater journey together as a small family? I think not!Chloey and Seth- you are my "be all end all's", my beloved's, and my ROCKS!
This summer was definitely a laid back one for us- beaches, camping, spontaneous road trips here and there . Wherever we went we had our bathing suits, two little chihuahua's- and a camera bag:)